hello luv

goodmorning.

as you may or may not have seen, i took the liberty of creating a separate space for our story-telling. i hope you'll find no problem in that.

creating ' a story, a story' has been my only contribution since my first post.

i'll begin again where you left off - the picture.

shooting for our save-the-date cards was unexpectedly funny. it was also unexpectedly intimidating ... for me at least. i didn't think i would feel as awkward as i did since jacki was the one behind the camera. i was nervous and afraid most of the time because i didn't want to come out looking 'not my best.' thankfully, we ended up with good frames to choose from ... though in the great amount of frames we had i did turn out looking quite odd.

one would think that because i have had previous experience modeling with you, that i would have been alright ... i guess you and your handsomeness still makes me nervous ... or it's just been so long since that first shoot.

that georgetown photo shoot was, in fact, quite fun. it wasn't easy getting my leg up there while trying to keep my back flush against the wall. my legs are definitely not long enough.

seeing that photograph again instantly made me smile as memories of that day came flooding back to me. i can't help but feel that we owe d.c. another full visit - an opportune time for a wonderful date - how about it?

(it also reminds me that we owe our zeb friends a visit in hotlanta)

the most recent full day experience i shared with you was our charlottesville trip. it wasn't meant to be a fun day, rather a day of mission, but i ended that day on a very glad note thanks to you.

i do have a confession: on the way down i was quite worried that i might get sad at memories from the days i spent on those grounds, or that perhaps the memories and all things familiar might dampen our day

i was wrong. i'd be lying of course if i said i wasn't at all reminded of my multiple visits past, but there was no sadness nor was there any dampening (even the weather didn't do it).

that whole day was, instead, composed of all things enigmatic - i think that's a fitting word. all things i didn't know, that at the same time brought me happiness and excitement. let me explain.

the thoughts that entered my head were primarily those that wondered about YOUR days at UVA and the feelings that accompanied the recollections whilst you were there; passing memgym, being in newcomb (the cinematique?), mentioning klockner, ruby tuesdays, la maison, even mellow mushroom.

those brought unexplicable smiles to my face - i wanted to know more. like which paths you took from lambeth to your classes - and could i walk those ways with you? which table did you sit at for meals, what did you eat- and could i share that with you? i wanted to browse the aisles of film at clemons, or grab a book and read with you.

other thoughts that lingered, which drowned out my years past, were the questions that asked how my time coming would be spent there ... and if my time would in fact be coming for uva.

it was a wonderful day for me, christophe. in some way, i feel like i was able to share in a part of your past; and not to say that day was like a missing piece, but i also feel that attending that school (possibly) would integrate that past with now ... my now, my future, our now, our future.

it may not make sense to you, but it does to me.

so to sum all things up, i cannot wait for things to come. our final photo product, our day date, our wedding and all things thereafter.

i love you.


-A